last night, i wasn’t able to sleep early. i panicked all night and morning cause i realized that my St. Jude bracelet was lost. i searched, think, try to remember and panic, everything, i cant find it. i got frustrated and i almost cried. i know its just a material thing but that stuff is more important to me than a cellphone. if i were to choose among my stuffs which one could go lost, this one surely would equalize my laptop, im afraid they might scold me if i lost my laptop, but if we’re rich, this will surely be the least thing i want to be lost. and so i cant find it. this is how i suspect how things get complicated. tuesday morning, as i leave home, i noticed that my favorite white watch is lost but because i was running late i decided to just wear my brown watch and decided to take the lrt. its always crazy and choatic out there competing with barbarian working gurls. so when i was standing on the platform waiting for the train to come, i decided to make my St. Jude bracelet safe. i was wearing it on my right hand and i pulled it off and put it inside my right pocket which is somehow jammed packed cause my 2 cellphones and rosary is there. i felt relieved after i did that cause im always worried that my bracelet would broke off if i let it worn during that time. and so as i arrived at my station, i weirdly cant get my card off the entry point and luckily, there’s still newspaper and so i bent to get one. i rushed to school and arrived late. as i settle down after i arrived at my seat, i tried to feel if my bracelet is still. whenever its not in my hand, i usually paranoid that it would get lost so i usually check it on my pocket. as i checked it, i seem not to find it. but because i think my pocket is full of stuff, i first think that it might be hidden deep down. but that time i began to worry. later, i tried to search it again but i still cant find it, so i said to myself, maybe when i get home, i would be able to see it, i even suspected if i was able to bring it. it was already late night when i get home. it was a long day at school and too many stuff happen that i almost forgot about my bracelet. so come evening when i’m changing clothes, i noticed that something is weird among my stuff. i went to do my usual stuff and next day i didnt go to school cause i sit in enough. wednesday evening, as i was preparing my thursday handouts and stuff, i noticed that my white watch was there. but my St. Jude bracelet wasn’t. i searched every corner and every where it would be capable of occupying. but no trace. i even asked my mom where did she found my watch and searched that place. i even suspected, is there a bermuda triangle inside my room? its 2:30am and i decided that its so late that i need to go to sleep for school. im not calm, i cant even sleep. i want to cry. i weeped a little. i decided to finish the movie “a beautiful mind” but i wasnt able to do so cause they’re telling me its late so, 25% left to completion, i turned off my laptop. but still,. as i lie down, i was thinking about my lost bracelet. the first time i saw it on G’s hand after i prayed thoroughly that God would let me graduate during our second time to go to St. Jude, i automatically fell inlove with its beauty and i said to myself, i want one! i’ll buy that for sure. i asked G on where she bought it and so i bought one. i was really happy having it. all my friends who are very dear to my heart has one. maybe, we’re 15 who has it. the same exact St. Jude bracelet. i always wear it or i always bring it whenever i go out. it has a deep special meaning to me. it makes me feel safe and happy whenever i see it. it reminds me of my friends and our devotion to St. Jude. i dont feel alone whenever i see it. it is my constant reminder that He’s with me and so as my friends. it signifies our hope for our one dreams. its my most special material thing. its like my friend whose always there wherever i go. i dunno what else to describe it. but looking back, few days ago, maybe monday, or whatever day, i was thinking, what if it get lost? what would i do, or if someone offers me maybe 1 million for it, will i give it? or i imagined it framed as i grew older. i imagined a future with my bracelet. maybe around 3am i was still awake. i was thinking if i’ll just continue studying and go to school without sleep or sleep. but i slept. and surprisingly, they didnt woke me off. my class is 8am and i woke up 8:45am. sh!t im soooo damn late. i rushed for p2. its the first time i didn’t wore my St. Jude bracelet. i tried to calm myself and i just said to myself, after the boards, i would buy one. im afraid to buy another cause i bought one whose bigger before when i thought i lost my original one, and i experienced a second something. and so, i think i wont buy one for the meantime. we’ve been together for a year. it has been with me during my happy and difficult times. its my smile maker. after i became a better person in May, i’ll surely buy one. but ofcourse if someone would buy me a replacement now, i would surely love it. and i will be more careful. but, im still hoping that soon enough, my beloved St. Jude bracelet and i will meet again. please come back! thank you for reading and please, pray that we could meet again. i hope you understand why it means a lot to me. God Bless!^^,