take a leap lil me!
Wednesday, December 15
they say Christmas is in the air. everybody's attending christmas parties. everybody receives gifts. everybody's feeling having a good and fun time. but for a happy person that people perceive me to be, sadly now, im not. i hate being depressed during christmas. long before, it was one of my fave part of the year. but lately, i've been worrying how many would even remember me during these time. i really hate being depressed during christmas. im generally a happy person. happiness inspire me to do good and continue my life. its like my fuel. and now the tank is almost empty. i dunno why i cant just be happy. was is just because i cant beat myself? maybe its really true that a flu medicine wont heal an lbm. you need the precise remedy to a sickness so that you would heal. i really hate myself for being like this. my life stopped. i just want to sleep so that i wont feel the pain. it feels like a zombie. i hope i can get back my life. i want to be happy again. now i realize im a person full of pride. but i really want someone to save me. to care for me.
Juiced 10:41 PM
