at my worse.
Tuesday, December 14
why cant i just continue my life normally? as much as i want to get them out of my life, i cant cause they're like my water. i can still live but i'd be forever thirsty. as much as i want to talk to them i just simply cant. i somehow want to make them feel how awful they've became to make me feel miserable. plus i cant cause i haven't totally forgiven them. i hate lying so i want to talk to them when i totally feel okey. but seems like my absence is not a big deal. maybe they really can live with out me. seems like its happier if im not around. i just hate myself for overthinking things. why cant i just not care anymore? how come i still love them and want them in my life? why the heck do i became so much attached with a person like this so much. next year i hope i can learn to be not too much attached to a person. or more appropriately not be able to love and care anymore. i just hate how much i've invested my love for them but all i get was just this. there's no return of investment. all i want is a friend. why cant i have one? oh crap.
Juiced 11:32 PM
